Then the middle of Monday night hit. It was a normal tossing and turning nights sleep. But for some reason I moved my right shoulder off my side and realized it moved higher than normal. I moved it again and the same thing happened. That's when I paid closer attention to how I was laying and realized I had just possibly made an important observation. I've been saying for several months my neck is hurting me. Everyone keeps telling me it is because of the muscle spasms that I get due to the muscles in my neck overcompensating for the ones in my shoulder. I know the muscle spasms are a contributing factor but I really don't think it is the underlying cause of the neck pain. I don't know how to explain it other than it's this gut feeling that I've had so many times over the past 8 years that I've learned to listen to.
As I watched the hours go by on the clock all I kept thinking was, "Come on! Be morning already. I have to show my parents my arm motion with my neck bent forward". I'm one of those people who can't turn their mind off when they think they've discovered something. I keep a notebook and pen on my nightstand and write down notes as I think of things throughout the night. It sounds kind of weird but a lot of times I have dreams of being at the doctors office and in my dream I'll ask a question that I should find the answer to. My brain is on the go 24/7 so I write things down so I don't forget. So come morning, I showed my motion.
In the pictures below you can see the difference between my motion with my head neutral and head bent. All motion increases (except flexion; not pictured) September 21, 2012 was the last time I was able to move my right shoulder that much without insanely sharp/stabbing pain over the front of my shoulder. It might not look like a lot of motion, but in my world it's a ton.
|My left shoulder blade (right side of picture due to the reflection in the mirror)|
has a very apparent line at the top. This depression/divot has been there since Wednesday.
It is VERY tender to have pressure put on it.
|Left scapula is winging a lot more than normal. Before just the bottom used|
to wing out. If you look at the top though, my scapula is winging up top too.
That's where I felt the sharp/stinging pain and where I think the tear happened.
|My arm gets locked at this angle until my shoulder goes back into position.|
It's definitely not the most attractive thing in the world.
|Even though my shoulders are killing,|
sometimes all you can do is smile, put on a brave face,
and believe you will get through this.